9.10.2016

Elephant Beauty

(Picture sent to my friend to thank her for the t-shirt, I love it)

A few months ago when I was checking my bag at the Long Beach Airport the attendant checking my bag asked if I have been to India, referencing the the elephant t-shirt I was wearing. I said no but a friend had given the shirt to me as a thank you for giving her some ideas for her trip to Thailand because I have been there as well. And then I added on, but I did see elephants in Thailand.

He proceeded to tell me he was from India and that they have a saying there that would maybe be offensive in the US but it a very high compliment in India; and that is telling someone they have Elephant Beauty. To be beautiful as an elephant is a high compliment. See if you take the time to really see an elephant and notice its beauties you can see it. An elephant has an incredible truck, strong confident steps, a calm, peaceful, and kind presence, etc. He said, elephant beauty means someone is beautiful all around; the person has many attributes that makes them beautiful as a whole. And he didn't mean looks.

It was a great note to end a trip on but also another reminder to be beautiful in life; in the way I treat others, in the things I do, etc.

4.03.2016

12 Days of Christmas

Each year for Christmas growing up, my siblings and I would draw names and whomever we chose is who we gave a gift to for Christmas. As the family grew the tradition eventually had a few changes and has now evolved into all of the nieces and nephews choosing each other's names and all of the adults choosing each other's names, my parents included.

This past Christmas I chose my mom. Since I'm not married, I consider my parents my family unit and get them gifts anyways, so I wanted to do something a little extra for my mom and decided on... drum roll please... The 12 days of Christmas. It wasn't easy thinking of something for each day and it was even harder not giving any clue it was me, but it was so much fun to do for her.

Since people I are sometimes sharing ideas on blogs, I thought I would share this:

Preparations:
A a lot of Googling went on for ideas. I found other blogs of people who have done this and looked at their list of ideas. Did I make a budget... nope. Probably should have but it was my mom, I was ok splurging a little. But I did hit up Target's $1 bins, looked for sales on candy, searched for coupons, and more.
When I was compiling each gift, I was so scared my mom might see scraps of ribbon or empty bags of candy bags in my trash and trace it back to me, so I hid a grocery sack under my bed and put any trash related to the gifts in the bag and waited until AFTER christmas to dispense of the evidence. A little over the top? Oh well!
I also found some cute 12-days of Christmas tags on the internet and tied them to each gift with a golden ribbon.
You can find them here.

The Delivery of the Gifts:
This was a feat in itself but I decided to recruit helpers. I asked each of my siblings, with kids, if their kids would like to do it, just so they could have a little fun and be a part of it. I asked two girls, who are about high school aged, who live in our circle to deliver a bunch of them. I even gave them a little schedule oh which gifts needed to be delivered which days. And then I did the rest of the deliveries. Probably the funniest thing was the nights that I was home and the gifts were delivered, which was perfect because how could she suspect me, my mom would be out running errands or doing her Christmas shopping.
At first my mom was hesitant to receive the gifts, she felt bad and was nervous because she didn't want someone spending so much money on her. Then she started to get excited as each gift came and to see what new clever thing Secret Santa could come up with. THEN the later gifts started to get a little expensive and she got nervous again. Read on to see her reaction when she finally figured out it was me.

The Days:
1st day of Christmas my true love sent to me, a partridge in a pair tree. This one was a stretch, I got a bag of green and yellow MM's from Zurchers and mixed them together. The idea was, in my head, the green ones were the leaves of a tree and the yellow ones were the birds in the tree. Like I said, a stretch.
2 Turtle Doves - Mint Milk Chocolate Dove candies
3 French Hens - A loaf of French bread
4 Calling Birds - The sound track from Little Women. My only idea with this one was that I needed to get my mom a Christmas CD and I decided Little Women because a lot of the story is based during Christmas time and the soundtrack is beautiful. Well, my mom also noticed the story is about four girls and she kept raving on how clever it was that her Secret Santa thought of Little Women for FOUR calling birds. Ha! Also! I ordered the CD from Amazon and it arrived with a crack across the entire case. Let me just tell you, Amazon's return policies and procedures are awesome and I had a non-cracked CD case at my door just a few days later.
5 Golden Rings - A tiny Santa bag from the Target $1 bin filled with Werthers candies. As it is not very exciting to receive these candies, I also hid bit size Hershey's with Almond bars in golden wrappers underneath the Werthers.
6 Geese a Laying - 6 eggs with some omelet mixings: tomato, onions, and mushrooms.
7 Swans a Swimming - 7 folded origami swans. This was not easy!
8 Maids a Milking - Dish rags. She was in desperate need.
9 Ladies Dancing - A gift card for a pedicure, you know, for dancing toes.
10 Lords a Leaping - Tickets to Ballet West's Beauty and the Beast.
11 Pipers Piping - Pepperidge Farm Pirouette Cookie Sticks.
12 Drummer Drumming - a framed sign that said, "Repeat the Sounding Joy."
My mom and I had watch The Family Stone a few weeks earlier and there is a part in the movie when everyone in the family is in each of their beds and the house is quiet and it's snowing outside and everyone is quietly humming to themselves Joy to the World. Then one of the family members sings quietly to herself, "Repeat the Sounding Joy" and my mom said she really liked that. She's never thought about highlighting that part of the song but she really liked it. So! I asked my sister-in-law who is a graphic designer if she would make me the sign and she ended up liking it so much that she now sells it on her Etsy shop.

The funniest part of the last gift was, earlier on Christmas before we had opened gifts and were eating dinner, I told my siblings about how a friend of mine and her sisters have a competition on Mother's Day who can give their mom the card that is so tender and sweet that it makes her cry. Their mom has no idea. Well, my mom opened the framed "Repeat the Sounding Joy" and then realized it was me and burst into tears and the rest of the family burst into laughter.

Probably the best part was doing something for such an extraordinary woman. My mom is constantly thinking of others and even goes above and beyond when she doesn't need to, so it was fun to do the same for her.

3.19.2016

Book Review: The Rent Collector

In January I read The Rent Collector by Camron Wright. Oh my goodness, I loved this book. I even want to buy it so that it is part of my collection. The book started out and I was worried it would be more of a drama, intense, and sad, book but it wasn't. It was warm, and full of life. It did paint a vivid picture of what 3rd world country life situations are like but it also showed that your life can still be full and "rich" by the people you surround yourself with.

The book is about a community in a dump in Cambodia, yes a garbage dump, and centers around the rent collector and one of the families in the dump. It is about a mother who keeps a positive attitude but also looks for ways to improve her family's life. She decides to learn to read and write so that she may teach her children, in hopes they will be able to attend better schools and have a better life than she. It was fun to go along her journey as she learned to read and to appreciate my ability to read.

This will be the book I recommend to people to read for at LEAST the next year or so.
Some of my favorite quotes from the book:

"We are literature -- our lives, our hopes, our desires, our despairs, our passions, our strengths, our weaknesses. Stories express our longing not only to make a difference today but to see what is possible for tomorrow. Literature has been a called a handbook for the art of being human."

"Whatever words we utter should be chosen with care, for people will hear them and be influenced by them for good or ill." (Buddha)

"Just when we think we have our own stories figured out, heroes arise in the most unexpected places."

"Whether we like it or not, hope is written so deeply into our hearts that we just can't help ourselves, no matter how hard we try otherwise."

"It doesn't matter where you live, Sang Ly, it is how you live."

"Words demand justice, encourage freedom, change minds, and soften hearts -- and words save."

2.21.2016

What a Year... Goodbye 2015

Soooo I'm a little late in writing this but whatevs.

Review of 2015
I quit my job at Utah State and it was such a hard thing to do. Well, actually I quit in December of 2014 and then stayed through the end of April to help find my replacement and to make sure the next A-Team was trained. I'm glad I got a chance to meet the new A-Team, and of course instantly fell in love with them. I spent the summer in Thailand on a humanitarian trip with Help International. While I was there, I thought about what I wanted to do next; school or a job were both front runners in the possible out comes. I made a mental list of things I wanted out of my next job, if I were to just start working again, and when I came home I was very blessed to have quite a few job offers. Surprisingly I ended up taking a job at my dad's office. His business partner has been trying to get me to work there ever since I graduated from college and I've always turned it down (probably out of pride because I didn't want to look like someone who was just handed a job because her dad's name was on the building) but this time everything I wanted on my job wish list was offered, and they didn't even know about the list, and I decided it was best for what I needed and I could still do a good job for them. One thing I loved in Thailand was working with all of the cute kids and I have really been missing dance (going to go dance in Disneyland was one thing I was considering for "what's next.") and I decided I wanted to try teaching dance to younger kids and one of my things I wanted out of my next job was to have one flexible enough that I could leave early once a week to go and teach. Masters is still not out of the question; getting my MBA in the future is still a high possibility.

2015 Travels



Capitol Reef National Park - blog post still to come

Highlights and Favorite Moments

  • THAILAND!
  • Most epic Gif Conversation
    • One day in September two of my friends and I spent the entire day conversing through text only with gifs (moving pictures but not the movies). The humor and creativity was top notch throughout the whole day. The conversation talked about everything and anything; working out, eating food, being single, celebrating when someone would return to the conversation after being silent for an hour or so. We've tried to make it happen again but it quickly dies; that one day will always be known as epic.
  • 12 Days of Christmas
    • I had my mom for Christmas with our family Secret Santa drawing and I decided to do the 12 Days of Christmas for her. It was so fun to think of things to do for each of the days, to watch her receive each gift, and to do something big and special for someone who is constantly thinking of others.

Most Visited Posts
Sometimes People ask me "Why?"
Terrified
MBTI
Time Capsule

Things Learned
Cinderella reminded me I am happiest when I have courage and am genuinely kind.
The Thais taught me to be more generous, selfless, happy, and gentle.
Reflecting on my life thus far I came to realize the things I was most terrified to try but somehow still found the courage to try are some of my life's happiest, cherished, life-learning moments and stepping stones. No more letting fear stop me from what I want to do.
Dating can be fun when I let myself be myself.

What's Next
Teaching Dance - I'm terrified but what is there to loose? I would loose more by not trying. I'm not saying this is going to happen in the next month or so but my goal is to figure something out by the end of the year.
Buy a small home or townhouse. EEK! So scary and such a big investment.
Figure out the next grand travel adventure... obviously. London? Iceland? Asia? Guatemala?

Family Photos
My family as of 2015.
In 2008 we did family photos and while we were taking the pictures my sister-in-law said she was not doing this again until I got married. Well..... we have since had family photos twice and welp... no Amy marriage, sorry to disappoint. But at least the family keeps growing in other ways, right?

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1.16.2016

Book Reviews

So of course I strayed from my reading list for the year... I always do. Well I had three books lent to me and needed to read them and get them returned. Here are my reviews on them:

FOUR by Veronica Roth
Spoiler Alert: If you haven't read the Divergent Trilogy and plan to, don't read this review.

This book was a special addition to the Divergent Trilogy; I can't really call it a sequel because it really starts in the time line of the series before hand. The book is about the character Four, who is my favorite character, and how he came to be FOUR. It was fun to read a book from his perspective and to learn more about him. The only thing I didn't like was that the book ended abruptly; I felt like the author was like, "Oh, I met my quota, good enough," but it really wasn't a smooth ending. If you were just reading the book on it's own without the trilogy you would have said, "What the?!" (I did). The book begins before the Divergent book but then it starts to write parallel to it but it doesn't finish. I wish it would have gone through the end of Divergent with the attack on Abnegation and riding off to escape on the train. Four gets very involved in this book about trying to figure out what is going on with the possibility of an attack, it would have been nice to see it through to the end.

For just a fun and easy teen read, I loved this and wouldn't mind reading it again.

The Great Gathering by Chad Daybell

This was a church fiction book and it was about when we are nearing the "last days." I have mixed feelings about this book. I really like that the book made me think about how I would react if the things in the book started to happen today; would I pick up and leave everything because the Prophet asked me to even though in that moment it didn't seem there was any threat, I hope so. I wasn't a fan of the fiction part of making up church policy changes and "future leaders;" it was just a little weird for me. There was also one tiny slip in of a jibe against "Utah Mormons" and that really annoyed me because I think that happens enough as it is (and the last I checked we were on the same team so why I we trying to bring each other down) and so why put it in a book. Lastly I wasn't a fan of the grammar; there were a few mistakes.

Overall, I would say this is a take it or leave it book. It's not one I would say you HAVE to read but I also don't think you would want to poke your eyes out if you read it. It kept my interest for the most part.

Calling by Jeff Thompson and Stuart Bunderson

This book was recommended to my by a friend who had to read it for a class in her MPA program. I really liked it because it addressed how we are sometimes perplexed as to what we should be doing with our life in the workforce and if it is meaningful enough or what we "should" be doing. I feel like I am constantly struggling with this and it was nice to have a little perspective.

One chapter talked about how the two biggest mistakes we make in deciding what to do with our life is taking a job because it pays a lot of money or taking a job because you feel pressured or because it is expected of you. I completely agree with the money thing; taking a job just for the money is not worth it. And the second, I trap myself into often and need to stop doing it.

The book also talks about how we perceive work and how to determine what you really should be doing with your life. For example: what did you do a lot of when you were a kid? When we were kids we were probably at our most true to our self states. I played school, A LOT, and danced around the house, A LOT. Maybe that will help me on my path of figuring out what to do next.

One of my favorite quotes from the book was, "Spiritual gifts, it turns out, are not so much gifts to us from God, but rather gifts for us to give away." It's the idea that we are here to serve and it is in everyone's nature to want to serve. We are given spiritual gifts so we may serve each other in unique ways for all types of people. I also liked, "Giving ignites our imagination." I'm always a sucker for imagination.

I loved this book and would recommend it to anyone. I liked that it had everyday advice intertwined with eternal religious perspective.

12.19.2015

A Minute Is A Very Long Time

Do you ever have little life lessons that never leave you? The day I started 5th grade, many years ago, Mrs. T. told us she wanted us to hold still and not do anything or say anything for an entire minute. That minute was the longest minute of my life; I was very much aware of the time, the stillness of the room and nothing happening. When the minute was up we all erupted into outbursts of, "that was hard!" and "that took forever!"

Once we calmed down, Mrs. T. said, "Now that you realize how LONG one minute can be, I don't want to ever hear you say, 'well there is only 3 minutes left, it's not worth doing that or starting that.' because you can do so much in just one minute."

One more life lesson teaching me to use time wisely (not that I always do it), to make every minute count, and to make the most of, even the tiniest of, things.

10.11.2015

Leadership

When I was going to school up at Utah State University I was on the new student orientation team called the A-Team. Eventually on the A-Team I became a Student Coordinator and was a student worker over the A-Team. Our department had a program/class new students could take the week before school began called Connections and each member of the A-Team was a peer mentor for the students in one or two of the classes. As a student coordinator I did not get to be a peer mentor but my job was to be a runner all week long during the class, helping A-Team members where they may need help.

One day, one of our A-Teamers, Spencer, used our buzzers to play a game with his students and then another A-Teamer needed the buzzers right afterwards. Well Spencer and the other A-Team member did not have time to meet up to exchange the buzzers, so I said I would be the in between man for them. When I arrived at Spencer's class I was impressed by the way he interacted with his students, how he reached out to the shy ones, how he got the awkward ones to be part of the group, how he knew all of their names, etc. As we packed up the buzzers together, and his class was headed out the door to a workshop, I told him how great it was that he was doing all the things I just observed and told him what each of them were. His response took me completely surprise. He said, "Amy, I have watched you as my leader and I have watched you do all of those things with the A-Team and I knew I wanted to be a leader like you." I don't tell this story to say, "Hey, in case you didn't know, I am awesome." No, I like to tell this story because it was a good lesson to me that you are always being an example, even when you are not intending to be and there is more than one way to be a leader; even a quiet leader.

Years later, as I have talked about on here, I became the boss of the A-Team and I would tell the A-Team this story as we started a discussion about what leadership. I always loved this discussion because I was in a room of all leaders but leaders in so many different ways, although some did not realize it, and it was fun to see them accept they could each be a leader in their own way and that is what would make them the best leader. (If we were all the same type of leaders, this world would be boring and only a small group would follow).

One of my best A-Team members returned for a second year and when he made a comment in class he said that when he first joined the A-Team he didn't think he was anything compared to the others on the team. This made me smile, because I always knew what an incredible leader he was, but so many of us have been there where we don't believe we can be a leader because we are comparing ourselves to those around us. The cool thing about him is he decided to take the opportunity to learn from those around him but he also held on to his true talents as well. At the end of each "A-Team Year" we have a closing banquet and give out awards, mostly funny awards, but this particular A-Teamer received the traditional Spencer Vernon Banks award which is an award given to the A-Team member who goes above and beyond when helping students and staying continuously until the very last student has been taken care of.

When I hired my A-Team I didn't look for one type of person or leader because that didn't make any sense; this team was a resource for all new students and all new students are all different, thus, I needed a team where there was a variety of leaders so that these students had a higher chance of having someone they could relate to and connect with.

When I taught this leadership discussion, I asked everyone to think for a minute about leaders in their own life that they admire and why. I then asked them to write down the qualities and traits these leaders have and we made a huge list on the board. It was fun to see the huge variety of things written on the board from hard worker to sense of humor to humility to organization and creativity. I then had them all write on a piece of paper the leadership qualities they felt the had and two they wanted to improve or develop.

I always loved this class discussion because it always seemed to spark a flame of hope in each of them because even though they were among the best of the best; they were each there for their individuality and that was a good thing but sometimes they needed the reminder to break the mold because I didn't want molds.

I always ended this discussion telling them a little bit about whichever leadership book I happened to be reading at the time. My favorite was The Servant and it is about what the “true essence” of leadership is. It talks about how it is natural to think that leadership means you have power or you can manipulate others to do what you want them to do but that is not what the true foundation of leadership is. It focuses on leadership having authority which is built (and must be built) by building relationships, showing love, serving others and sacrificing.

I like this idea. I like the idea of selfless leading, I feel it is the most genuine and most effective type of leadership. To me, one of the ways of being a true leader is helping those you lead reach their full potential and what better way to achieve that than bey being selfless. And honestly, the best part of being a leader is getting the opportunity to learn from all of those you are following because each of them are leaders in themselves.

9.18.2015

Recognizing the Blessings

I spent a portion of my summer in Thailand on a humanitarian trip. While there I met one incredible woman who was such an example to me of faith, kindness, service, and recognizing the tiniest of blessings in life.

Peuen lives in the Akha Village in the north of Thailand. She is the only member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Later Day Saints in her village and the nearest ward house is 3 hours away in Chiang Mai. She often was a resource, to us, in her village to get projects going and get her community involved; many volunteers called her an angel. Peuen has diabetes and because of it, her health is not always the best but she stays so positive. I would often hear her say things like:

I know I am poor, but I know Heavenly Father will watch out for me.

I rather help others than myself.

Because Peuen did so much for us, we wanted to be able to do something for her and she let us help her plant her field of corn. The day we planted the corn it was incredibly hot; it was probably the most extreme heat I have ever experienced. I still had fun planting but the heat was just an added challenge. At one point my face had turned red from the heat and everyone thought I was sunburned; I wasn't.

While we were planting the corn a cloud covered the sun and Peuen said, "Oh! Heavenly Father knew we were hot, so he gave us shade." I was touched by this comment. How easy it is to look over these small blessings and here a woman, who has very little (in a material perspective), took time to recognize and sweetly acknowledge and thank Heavenly Father.

If you would like to read about my Thailand humanitarian experience, I just posted about it on my travel blog, Postcards From Amy. The blog itself has a few other posts about Thailand as well.

8.04.2015

Family Quote Book

In church we had a lesson about journaling or recording your history. One question during the lesson was about how each of us record our history. Comments were: a typical journal, scrapbook, printing emails between missionaries and their family members and putting them into a binder, videos, photo albums, gratitude journal, etc. I started to think about my family as a whole and I would say our history is mostly photo albums. My mom hadn't updated them for quite a few years and so my younger brother didn't even have pictures in the album. When she did update them, we all said, "Nate now exists!"

But there is something else my family does that is small but I think counts as a piece of our history and journaling; we have a family quote book. Whenever someone says something that makes us laugh or is "quote book worthy," we write it in the book. Sometimes at family get-togethers someone will pull out the book and read from the pages and we'll laugh all over again. Not only has it been fun to keep these fun moments captured but it is interesting how just a few words can recall an entire memory.

Here are some favorite quotes (where you didn't have to be there to get it) from the Family Quote Book:

"Shark Attack!... A shark waits for no one." -Nate while dunking me in the ocean while snorkeling

"How do you spell 'triad'?" - Me
"Shouldn't a grownup know how to a spell?" - Kira (niece, 8-years-old at the time)

"That's bologna." - Nate
"Horse bush!" - Mom

"There's a rule. Nobody dies on this trip!" - Megan

"Umm, dad? Is there anything we can do to help? - Me
"Someone could swear for me!" - Dad
"Shit!" - Me

"Nate shops at Express for men!" - Amber
"I have never shopped there!" - Nate
"Yes you have." - Amber
"Once!" - Nate

"Aunt MaryAnne read books growing up... I played teatherball." - Mom

"Bryce, you don't like eggs? But they have great proteins for you." -Amy
"Not me! Eggs kill my brain." - Bryce

"Honey, I love you, but you have been traded." -Bree

"Amy, remind me to tell you about the dream I had about you. It was so sad." -Nate
"Oh no, did I die?!" -Me
"No, worse! I died!" -Nate

"Would you be a sir and pass the juice?" - Nate

7.24.2015

Book Review: The Tipping Point

That's right, I have read another book on my book reading list for the year. Fist bump! I read The Tipping Point by Malcolm Gladwell.
This was an interesting book but I was bored at times as well. Some chapters I would found fascinating and then others would drag for me. One problem is the books that pull me in are usually fiction and fantasy and this one is non-fiction, literal, and to the point. The book is about what little things can lead to big changes.

One chapter I found interesting was about Paul Revere and him riding out to warn that the British were coming. What very few know, is that another rider went out with Mr. Revere and he took a different route to help spread the news that much more but nobody knows about him because he was not effective in his ride. The book explained that Paul Revere was very involved in his community in many different types of groups and the other rider only had one group he associated with. The idea was that when we let ourselves expand to many groups (i.e. church, community service group, yoga class, fundraiser for whatever, etc.) you are better known and when a time comes that you need to spread news or rally people together, the more groups you are associated with the more you will have to back you up.

One chapter talked about how information given out sticks in our minds. Are people just hearing the information; or are they remembering it too. The interesting thing about the chapter was they went into depth on Sesame Street and Blues Clues. Sesame Street learned many techniques on how to capture an audience attention and for the audience to learn things but Blues Clues master the information being retained in children. They mastered the stickiness factor. Sesame Street is meant to entertain the parent's of the children (a little) as well as entertain and teach the children. Anyone "grown up" who has ever watched Blues Clues has probably been bored out of their mind and even thought the show was stupid but it pulls kids in. The makers of Blues Clues learned how to pull in the attention of kids by taking out bells and whistles, challenging them, teaching them, and then repeating the episode 4 more times in a row to help it stick. And it worked!

Whenever I read books like this, "You can change the world if you take the right steps," I almost get overwhelmed; like I'm taking on a big task or something. But I decided to take one thing from the book that I want to try and that is to be involved in a variety of ways. Not only to burst out of life "boxes" but also to be able to make a difference if I need to; small or big.

Of all leadership and "making a difference" books I would say to read the book if this is your type of genre to read and your always reading these types of books. But if you are only going to reading one, I would skip this one.

6.08.2015

Terrified

Right now, in my life, I am at a crossroads... again. Back in December I quit my job but stayed until we could find someone we all felt good about. This was an extremely hard decision because I loved my job and I loved my student workers even more; but the hours were wearing me down and I didn't like the person I was in my job (tired, snappy, hating the things I used to love, etc.), as well as living my job.

The beginning of May I moved home, after finally finding my replacement, to my parents and started a mini job answering phones at a car dealership while also preparing to go on a humanitarian trip to Thailand. I decided I didn't want to just jump into another job, I wanted to take my time and figure out exactly what I wanted to do next. Plus, I've always wanted to do a humanitarian trip, so why not go on one during a time when I actually have the time to go.

I've been terrified thinking about what I want to do next and all of the ideas seem like a big risk or a huge leap. I then started to think about all of the things I have done in my life that have terrified me to try for but I somehow found the courage to go for it and I have never regretted one of them. Even though I'm still terrified and still have no idea what I really want to do; this was a good reminder that I shouldn't let being terrified stop me from trying. What's the worst that will happen? It won't work out and I'll try another path? Everything I have done so far in my life whether it worked out or not, I learned something from it and wouldn't want to trade the experience. Yeah, I'm getting older and it feels like I should just pick one safe path and stick with it, but then when you think of a life-span of 100 years... I'm still a baby.

It's funny how fear takes over sometimes. I once was listening to two of my student workers talking to each other, yes... I would sometimes eaves drop, and one was talking about how he probably wouldn't do something because of all these reasons that really attributed to fear and the other replied by saying,
"Are you really going to let fear control and dominate that much?"
I loved it so much, I wrote it down. It's true, too many times I let fear or the idea of failure deter me from trying and I shouldn't. I'm going to miss learning from them.

When I got accepted to this humanitarian trip, fear started to settle in and I questioned if I should even be going... maybe I didn't want to go?! I told my sister about this and she told me the same thing she tells my 11-year-old niece, her daughter, who suffers from anxiety, "Being scared is part of life, but you can't let it hold you back. Doing it, even though you're scared, is what helps you learn and grow and become better and be happy."

Here are some of the things in my life that I was terrified to even try, but I did, and I have never regretted it:

Student Government
In junior high I watched the student body officers and saw all the opportunities they had to do. The thing that interested me the most were the events they got to plan; assemblies and dances and more. I was hesitant if I should even run; I wasn't in the "cool" group, I was shy, but I also wanted to try. I ran to be an SBO and lost but the next week was class officer elections and I decided to try again and... I made it! 9th grade class vice president. The following year I ran for Sophomore class office and made it. The next year I ran for Junior class office and lost. Then came time for elections for my Senior year this was my last chance. As I filled out the SBO ballot with my name on it, I looked at the other names and was convinced I had lost; there were so many names who were backed by talent or popularity or both. To my surprise I won and embarked on such a hard but fun Senior year experience.

Some failures and some wins, some hard times and some great times; I was terrified to run for student government and then it became a huge part in wrapping up my grade school career. I learned how much I love to plan and organize events (and even more, learned how to plan and organize them), and made some great friends.

The A-Team

My sophomore year of college I started with a life bucket list and one of the ones was to apply for the A-Team, new student orientation staff at USU. I had spent my Freshman year not getting involved, just going to class, and watching movies with a boyfriend. It was time to make some changes and do something meaningful. I thought this would be a one year thing, if I made it, and then I would try another thing the next year. I made it! The first year I loved it for the students I got to help as they prepared to start school but then two student coordinators (leaders on the A-Team) graduated and my boss called and encouraged me to apply for one of the positions. This took me out of my comfort zone, I had spent my first year just blending in and not trying to stand out, how could I be a leader? Once again, I decided to just try and I soon became a student coordinator for two more years and I absolutely loved it. I loved getting to see the business side of the student orientation, doing left brain work in the office, but most of all encouraging my teammates and teaching them how to best help new students. Of course, with all things, it came with it's challenges but it is what made my college years their best.

I learned leadership on the A-Team; how to work as a team and to utilize everyone's strengths to make the team perfect as a group. I learned to love my education and learned that I wanted to help others learn to love to learn. I learned customer service... oh man did I learn customer service (you really loose hope in humanity when you are working in customer service).And I wasn't just on a team... they were my college family.

Backpacking Through Peru
In 2013 I had just quit a job and decided to travel for the rest of the year before starting another job. A friend of mine has always had a dream to go to Peru and was looking for a buddy to go with her. I said yes... why not? This trip took me completely out of my comfort zone and it, once again, terrified me but it also will always be one my favorite life experiences. It was my first time visiting a 3rd world country, I didn't know the language (often times my friend would be speaking to someone about an excursion or a place to stay in Spanish and then she would turn to me and ask, "Are you ok with that?" Hahaha, well since I didn't understand the conversation, as long as you didn't sell me into slavery, I'm in), I embraced being dirty for days in a row, I learned how to take a cold shower, it was my first time staying in hostels, and the list continues on.

Just a three week experience and I learned a lot. I learned how to let go, forget myself, and really see the places you are in. I learned so much from my friend and admired so many of her great qualities on this trip; her humility, fearlessness, selflessness, joy in the moment, and truly being grateful for the things we saw or did. I learned that I truly do have SO much in my life and am blessed in SO many ways. I also learned living simply and making life less chaotic is important.
Peru

There are more, but this is getting WAY too long.

I needed this reminder and wanted to share it with you. Stop letting fear take control. Learn to do things even if you are scared. No regrets or at least give yourself the opportunities for regrets. Terrified... bring it on!

5.14.2015

Book Review: Peter Pan

"Second star to the right and straight on 'til morning."

I'm plugging away at my 2015 reading list like an elephant, one bite at a time. The next book checked off the list is Peter Pan. Check!

"If growing up means it would be beneath my dignity to climb a tree, I'll never grow up"

This book had it's own creative way of speaking to the reader; it was very poetic and also had a very youthful way telling a story. There were many times when things were explained and it was described in such a way as if a child were explaining it to you. It was a fun reminder of how we look at life and the world differently at different stages in our life.

"I'm not young enough to know everything."

There was one interesting moment in the book where Peter was wrapping a parcel and he was trying to tie it with a string but the string was not long enough to wrap around it and so Peter got mad and kicked the parcel. The narrator then explained that technically it was not the parcel's fault but it was the string's fault for not being long enough. How many times in life do we get wrong at something that it is not the problem, only because it is easier than getting upset at the actual problem?

"We are all failures - at least the best of us are"

I would recommend reading the book, it was different but still enjoyable. It was beautiful and sad. I loved that is was full of wonder, magic and imagination. I also loved the fun, thought provoking, quotes throughout the book.

"God gave us memory so that we might have roses in December."

I've always wanted to read Peter Pan because I have a little love of Peter Pan and Neverland. Because of this love, I wonder if I could have forced myself to love the book. I grew up playing make believe in the backyard of a childhood friend's yard and we would spend hours for days during the summer running around, jumping on his tramp, and flying off to Neverland. He was always Peter Pan and I was always Tiger Lilly (I didn't like Wendy much when I was little. She was a "Sissy.") I love the idea that Neverland is an example of adventure, being true to your self, and imagination.

"Those who bring sunshine to the lives of others cannot keep it from themselves."

Life seemed unstoppable when we were young, but as we get older it seems to have more possibilities but also more restrictions. I love books like this because it is a reminder life is beautiful and it doesn't have to be hard. This read was another reminder to not take life so seriously and not to be afraid to do the impossible. One fun thought about the book was how the island of Neverland and it's characters were representations of life. The pirates represented adulthood while the lost boys represented childhood and they constantly were chasing each other around the island (also the shape of a clock, representing time). Just as we as children couldn't wait to grown up and sometimes as adults we are jealous of children; we're always chasing the other.

"Dreams do come true, if only we wish hard enough. You can have anything in life if you will sacrifice everything else for it"
 
The particular book that I read had the most amazing artwork; it went right along with the magic and the youthful writing. Just a fun extra tid bit.

"All the world is made of faith, and trust, and pixie dust."

5.04.2015

Time Capsule

If you were to make a time capsule today, to be opened in ten years, what would you put inside of it?

In January of 2000 we had just survived Y2K and I made a time capsule for 10 years, however I did not open it until 12 years later and am now blogging about it 15 years later. It was funny to see the things I had predicted as a 12 year old and how UN-practical some of my predictions were.

Items in the Capsule:
Well the capsule had some random items, some things I predicted for my future written out, a letter from my mom and lots of pictures.
Most recent family photo at the time
1st day of school
 These guys were my first friends growing up and a few months before this capsule Mark, in the middle, passed away. I remember this picture being a big comfort at the time. I suppose I put it in the capsule so that I would never forget him.
 Best friend
 6th grade photos (school and dance)
 Funny that I put a KitKat in the capsule but yet I listed 100 Grand as my most favorite candy bar. Perhaps I ate the 100 Grand I planned to put in the capsule.
Clearly a foreshadow to my poetry talents. I still don't like being called Amy M. today if there are multiple Amys. I rather be called by a nick name or Amy Jo.
 My most favorite bookmark (it was a huge sacrifice to put it in the time capsule) and a Beanie Baby (I was obsessed).

Things I predicted:
  • I will be married to Andrew Payne. (Best friend since the diapers days and still a great friend today; and I love his wife - they are perfect together)
  • I was married in the Jordan River temple. (That's funny, today I want it to be the Salt Lake Temple)
  • I will have 4 children. (I wish someone would have explained to me that even though it is a good goal to know how many kids I wanted, having 4 by 22 years old was not practical at all)
  • I will be living in Utah County (Yikes!)
  • I will have a career in teaching. (The ironic thing about this is, I started college wanting nothing to do with teaching and today I love to do it whenever I get the chance. Should have stuck with my 12 year old guns.)
  • The biggest accomplishment in my life so far will be getting a horse or a big house. (Ha! Still working on the horse and I would rather a small house; though I do like to entertain so maybe a small house BUT with a big place in the house to gather friends and family)
  • I will have graduated from Utah State University. (Bingo! I did one thing I predicted.)
Just another example life does not go as planned but as long as we're working hard and doing our best; life still is good.

Things that were my "favorites" at the time (and what they are today):
Book: Someone Was Watching (The Secret Garden and Harry Potter series)
Sport: Dance (Dance)
Season of the Year: Summer (Summer and Fall)
Holiday: Christmas (Christmas Eve)
Family Trip: Florida (Florida, Hawaii)
Place to Visit: Uintas (Boston, NYC, and anywhere my passport will take me)
Clothes Store: Limited 2 (Banana Republic, JCrew, Anthropology, Nordstrom, H&M)
Scripture: 1 Nephi 2:3 (D&C 121:7-8)
Musical Group: Disney (Matt and Kim, OneRepublic, Angels and Airwaves, Coldplay, The Queen Bee ;), Flo Rida, Ingrid Michaelson, TSwift, Tegan and Sara, and pretty much anything from soundtracks and musicals)
Fast Food: Arby's (Jimmy Johns)
Candy Bar: 100 Grand (Take 5)
Car: Bug (Audi TT or Subaru Crosstrek)
Movie: Robin Hood Men in Tights (Sandlot, Sound of Music, Shawshank Redemption, Pitch Perfect, Remember the Titans, Tim Burton's Alice in Wonderland, Lord of the Rings, and Finding Neverland)
TV Show: FRIENDS (FRIENDS, Gilmore Girls, Arrow, and How I Met Your Mother)

A few excerpts from the letter from my mom:
"Right now you are 12 years old and excited about everything (except now and then your brother, Nathan!). You are in the sixth grade at Horizon Elementary and in Miss Mitchell's class. You love art, dance, horses, reading and being with your friends! You are very dramatic and love to pretend."

"You love the movie, Robin Hood Men in Tights, and have a great English accent when repeating lines from the movie! You are always smiling and on the go trying your best in everything you do."

"I wonder if you still like art. You are so creative and do such a beautiful job on everything you do. And what about dance? I hope you still enjoy it as much as you do now. You are a wonderful dancer and I never grow tired of watching you on stage! Speaking of "the stage" I wouldn't be surprised if you have been in a school play or two by now! You are quite the dramatic little actress always dressing up in something crazy like my long skirt, jackets, hats, shawls or Hawaiian wraps."

"You have always been so concerned about those less fortunate than yourself, the homeless, and those that need a friend. Every night you pray from the homeless and ask Heavenly Father to help them have a home someday."

"You love lists, making and working on goals, and getting things done. There is usually a list of things by your bed that you are working on and you love to cross things off when they are done."


So I ask again, if you were to make a time capsule today, to be opened in ten years, what would you put inside of it?

What I want to put in my next time capsule:
  • Another list of things I would like to predict in the next 10 years.
    • Personal and historic
  • Another list of my favorite things right now.
  • A CD of songs that are my favorite right now. (Ha, will we even know what CDs are in 10 years?) AND/OR songs that I would love to choreograph dances to.
  • Picture of my family.
  • Picture of friends.
  • List of places I hope to travel to in my lifetime.
  • $2 bill (ha, why not).
  • Life bucket list.
  • An old cell phone or iPod.

4.20.2015

The MBTI Personality Test

So, I really like personality tests. I just think they are fun but also I think they are a great reminder that we are all different and that is ok. This world is awesome because it is filled with differences. Every year my student staff takes the following personality test and then we discuss it. I thought I would share with you what I teach and discuss with them.

First: Take the test here: MBTI - Myers Briggs Test
The outcome of the test can sometimes be different if you take it multiple times, that's ok. Sometimes your results are different when you take the test at work and then at home or it changes over the years as you change and grow. I have been ENFJ, ENTJ, ISFJ and INFJ over a span of 8 years and taking the test four times. The older I get the more introvert I become.

p.s. If you get "J" for Judging, that is not a bad thing. The first time I took the test as a student and I got "judging," I was mortified and kept trying to retake the test to get a different answer but I kept getting "J." I'll explain what it means below.

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What do each of the letters mean:
E and I: Extraverts and Introverts
E - Sociable, Energized through interactions with others, Need to express their thoughts, and turn their attention outward. Extraverts are interactors and "on the fly" thinkers. Their motto is: Ready. Fire. Aim.
I - Prefer privacy, more likely to listen to others, may only tell trusted people what they really think or feel. Introverts can be sociable but need quiet to recharge their batteries. Introverts want to understand the world and tend to be concentrators and reflective thinkers.


S and N: Sensors and iNtuitive
S - Practical, Detail Oriented, Realistic
Sensors tend to rely on their five senses. They are detailed oriented, want facts and trust them. They are practical (being grounded is what is natural), like details (there is satisfaction from taking care of all the little things) and are realistic (they are in tune with the reality of the situation they find themselves in).
N - Innovative, Big Picture, Imaginative
Intuitives like to seek out patterns and relationships among the facts they have gathered. They trust hunches and their intuition and look for the "big picture." Because they are focused on the "Big Picture" details are often missed or ignored. Ns more commonly can't remember where they parked their car because they were too busy thinking of their "mission." If Ns are asked to describe a picture shown to them, they will tell you a little about the subject but then they will use their imagination to tell you what might have happened next or something imagined about the relationships of the people in the picture.

Fun Fact: Albert Einstein was a "N." He had a fanciful thought process with his experiments; he could see patterns where others saw randomness and chaos.

F and T: Feeling and Thinker
F - Personable, Value Harmony, Energized through appreciation and encouragement.
Feelers focus on human values and needs as they make decisions. They tend to be good at persuasion and facilitating difference among group members. Fs are more likely to wear their heart on their sleeve, however, if they are an introvert they will not open up with sharing their feelings with just anyone.
T - Value Fairness, logical, not likely to show emotions.
Thinkers like to make decisions based on analysis, logic and principle. Thinkers value fairness. In school, thinkers like clear course and topic objectives. Thinkers of course feel emotion but do no like to show it, it can even be embarrassing when emotion comes out.

J and P: Judging and Perceptive
J - Planners, goal oriented, likes deadlines, tend to literally know what time it is.
Judgers are decisive, planners and self regimented. They focus on the task and only want to know the essentials and take action quickly. Deadlines are sacred. If a teacher at school extended a due date for a project on the day it was originally due, Js are typically annoyed by this action.
P - Curious, Adaptable, Spontaneous, Laid Back
Perceivers usually start many tasks, want to know everything about the task, and often find it difficult to complete a task. Deadlines are meant to be stretched. Percievers often postpone doing an assignment until the very last minute. They are not lazy, quite the contrary; they seek information to the very last minute.

Teaching it to my student workers:
Observing a Picture with Ss and Ns:
I split the room in half and had the Ss sit on one side and Ns on the other. I then showed them this image for 30 seconds and asked them only to observe it. Once the 30 seconds was over I then had them take another 30 seconds to write down what they saw and then we shared our findings with the class.
Ss listed the following things found: butterfly, drain pipe, bee/insect thing, etc.
Ns listed the following things found: summer day, red butterfly, bee flying off to go get pollen or something.

J and P planning a trip to Disneyland
This exercise is by far my most favorite of the entire discussion because their personalities come bursting out and it truly shows the difference between the two groups. I split the class up into Js and Ps and then have each of those groups split up into sub groups of 4-7. My student staff is usually dominated by Js every year and so usually I have one, maybe two, groups of Ps and then about 7 groups of Js. I then give them 5 minutes to plan a trip to Disneyland. I have to keep myself from laughing while I observe these 5 minutes because its so "typical." The Ps just sit casually and look as if they are just lounging and having a casual conversation and then the Js are talking quickly and excitedly to get in all they have to say before the time is up and they usually have a pen and paper out taking notes as they discuss.
When the time is up I ask each group to share the trip they have planned. The Ps are very vague in their details and usually share things like, "go to Disneyland, stay at a hotel, ride the rides we want to ride, maybe go to the beach one day," etc. The Js have the trip planned out to a T; they know exactly how they will get to Disneyland, where they will be staying, what exact days they'll go to the park, which rides they will ride first, which rides they'll get fast passes to, which days they'll take a break and go to the beach, and sometimes even which parades or shows they will attend and what foods they'll have to make time to eat.

This year one of my P groups plan was to take a train from Salt Lake to San Francisco, because it sounded like fun, and then they would just figure out how to get to Anaheim from there. I thought my Js were all going to have a heart attack.

The discussion:
The discussion is usually just about 4-5 questions I have for them but it usually last about 45 minutes, at least, as they all share their thoughts and opinions. I start out by asking them, "why do we take personality test," and they spend a lot of time talking about how it is important to recognizing the difference in others, to not let it upset you when someone works differently than you, and to see them as strengths, etc.

I take some time to talk to the about not using their "personality traits" as an excuse. For example, just because you are P, it doesn't mean it is ok to disregard deadlines and let others down. Or just because you are an I it doesn't mean you don't know how to public speak. We can all work on our traits and still use them to our advantage.

We also talk about how we can use this information to better work as a team and to better serve the new students we help throughout the summer. The great thing is, they do all the talking and do an amazing job at teaching each other.

All of my information has been found from Common Careers for Personality Types, Wilson's Newer Views of Learning, Master Teacher Program: Learning Personalities and the book Just Your Type by Paul D. Tieger and Barbara Barron-Tieger.

3.22.2015

Sometimes People ask me "Why?"

So, I'm still single. And I'm ok with that. I mean, yes, I am very excited to be married and have kids, however, I'm not going to mope around until I find my guy. I haven't found him yet and until I do I will continue to live life, learn and grow.

A few days before Valentines someone said to me, "I bet this time of the year, especially this month and even week, can be especially hard for you." Haha, umm no person who knows me very little, thank you for saying this very out of the blue thing. I'm pretty sure I'm single every other day of the year, not just on Valentines. However, from this conversation I started to think of reasons of why I maybe am still single. I usually can't think of any HUGE deal breakers, I honestly just don't think I've found the guy yet that we can both be our full self around and we love each other for it. But I did start to think of some funny reasons of why I could still be single. Please enjoy my brainstorming session.

Reasons why I am probably still single
  1. My nieces and nephews are probably praying that I will never get married so that they may have me all to themselves and Heavenly Father is answering their prayers and not mine. Let's be honest, they're way cuter than I am so I don't blame him for siding with them.
  2. I love to travel which means I am not around a lot. What guy wants to go out with a girl who says yes to a date but then adds on, "but I'm going to Peru for a few weeks and so I won't be able to go out until I get back." Yeah, he's pretty much dating your Frienemy when you get home from the trip. His loss.
  3. I rather hang out with my mom than go out and be social. Doesn't mean I don't make an effort to go out, I'm just kind of over the random crazy parties where you meet lots of random people. I rather spend time with my mom, family or close friends.
  4. I haven't kissed in so long that I'm pretty sure I have reverted back to VL. I am TERRIFIED to kiss again. Maybe I'll practice on my arm ;)
  5. I am getting old enough that I am no longer the cute adorable fluffy energetic puppy dog at the pound. I am the older, mature, potty trained dog. Which dog would you choose? Puppy or old dog? Yeah, I would probably choose the puppy as well. "But I'm potty trained guys! Common!"
  6. On a regular basis I get people telling me about someone they want to set me up with. For weeks, even months, they'll talk this person up and how they're so excited to have us meet AND THEN NOTHING EVER HAPPENS... it's getting old people. Either give the guy my number... or don't and let it end.
  7. I have a theory that the man I am supposed to marry died. Now I have totally told this as a joke but what if I said this SO MUCH that the universe made it happen?! Yikes
  8. Someone recently told me that dating is like Jumanji, you have to keep playing the game to get out of the game. Some times I REALLY hate the game but it's true... I can't stop playing. (Even though sometimes I want to, ugh.)
  9. Umm... all the good guys are gone... hence the video...

3.08.2015

Literally Peacocking

Something I love to do is dance. Weather it is an organized dance company preparing for a performance or a group fitness class OR just dancing at a school dance or at a friend's party or with my nieces at family dinner or in my bedroom in front of the mirror. Oh dear! Did I just admit to dancing in from of my mirror when alone?! You better believe it.

A few weeks ago my roommates and I watched Pitch Perfect and when the movie ended and the credits started the music was great dancing music and I started dancing and said, "Aw, I just want to go dancing!" and one of my roommates replied, "Let's go!" I was shocked because she usually isn't one to want to go dancing. To test out how serious she was I said, "Well, the university (where I work) is throwing a Mask Ball this weekend, want to crash it?" To my surprise she said, "Let's do it!" Honestly I was a little worried about going because I didn't want to run into my student workers and be that weird person who is creepy who can't move on from the college "fun" scene BUT if she was willing to go dancing, I was ready to make it happen.

We got masks and spray-painted them sparkly silver, bought boas and wore black dresses. It was the easiest Mask Ball put together outfit.

At the dance we went all out. We didn't care what anyone thought and we danced as crazy as we wanted. The masks were great for being mysterious and unrecognizable (but really, my student workers didn't recognize me... at first. It wasn't until one that I am close with was like, "Amy?" and then they all got excited that it was me and danced with my roommate and I for a few songs), but by far the best part of dancing at the Mask Ball were our boas. Genius! It was fun to dance around flapping them about.

Through out the dance we kept having guys come and dance with us and then ask for our numbers. That has NEVER happened before. One, I really think it is because we were dancing without caring what anyone thought but TWO those boas were real attention getters. I think just being sassy and flipping our boas back and forth or side to side was catching their eyes. Heaven knows we sure were getting the feathers IN OUR eyes.

It wasn't until later that I realized the true theory behind all this attention from the guys... we were peacocking! LITERALLY! Feathers and all!

The funny thing is, with our masks on and being tiny girls, I know those guys had no idea how old we were. Talk about robbing the cradle inadvertently.

p.s. I've learned over the years that I look "so good" dancing when I don't care what anyone thinks and so I go with that attitude and have a blast. However, if you are someone who likes to dance but gets shy when dancing in public, grab a boa... it's fun, boosts your confidence and gives you something to use for movement while you are dancing and don't know what else to do.