1.25.2015

2015 You Will Be The Year That I Read!

This is getting sad, there are some books on this list that have been repeating on this list for YEARS... it's getting embarrassing. Here's the proof: 2014's List

I have to admit, I watch TV when I need to vedge and I really should do something that's enjoyable but builds more character and exercises my brain. I actually made a goal back in October to finish up 3 shows I have been watching on netflix, pathetic I know, and then to swear of "TV" until I finish the below list. After that I'm going to allow myself to watch some TV but my plan is to be more balanced with TV and reading or of course other things.

Of course if someone wants to go to a movie or watch some TV while hanging out I'm ok with that but I need to stop spending the alone time that I sometimes crave by watching TV and instead do the things I always wish I made time for.

Here's my reading list for the year:

Books I have started but have not finished:

The Count of Monte Cristo by Alexander Dumas

Mediation and the Atonement of Christ by John Taylor

The Three Musketeers by Alexander Dumas

Books to Read this year

Deception Point by Dan Brown

Utopia by Sir Thomas More

The Scarlet Pimpernel by Baroness Orczy

The Tipping Point by Malcolm Gladwell

The Servant by James C. Hunter

Jane Eyre by Charlotte Bronte

Les Miserables by Victor Hugo

Twenty Years After by Alexander Dumas

Peter Pan by J.M. Barrie

Little Women by Louisa May Alcott

Books I would like to read but only if I miraculously finish the above books this year:
Anna Karenina by Leo Tolstoy

War and Peace by Leo Tolstoy

Tale of Two Cities by Charles Dickens

Bossy Pants by Tina Fey

Believing Christ by Stephen E. Robinson

As a Man Thinketh by James Allen

Serena by Ron Rash

Probably a teen novel... why not ;)

1.11.2015

Book Review: Divergent Series


Oh look! Three more books I read in 2014 that were not on my reading list. I should feel good that I got so many books in; even if they weren't on the list. Life is better that way anyways, right? I went and saw the Divergent movie with my roommates and I really enjoyed it which I was worried I would be a little lost watching it, having not read the book. But after the movie I was intrigued enough, I wanted to read the book. Plus the guy who played Four (Theo James) was hot... here take a gander:

I needed an escape from work but it had to be a quick easy read and Divergent fit the bill; just something I could quickly read a chapter or two before bed. I read Divergent in about 10 days and I liked it a lot more than The Hunger Games. Once I read Divergent I had to find out what happened next and how the series concluded and so I continued on. It took me longer to read Insurgent and Allegiant because I had gotten even busier with work that it was either sleep or read... I choose sleep. However, the 2nd and 3rd book didn't draw me in like Divergent had, I only kept reading out of curiosity but not out of being pulled in to books with a 100% page-turner style. HOWEVER, they were entertaining enough that I wanted to keep reading.

The series is about a post-apocalyptic world set in Chicago. The society has learned to survive by dividing the people into 5 factions (groups): Abnegation - the selfless and always putting other's needs before their own, Erudite - the curious and intelligent, Dauntless - the brave and courageous, Amity - the peaceful (they make me think of hippie tree-huggers), and Candor - the honest (to a fault sometimes).

The book is centered around Tris (Beatrice), who is Abnegation born, and it begins with the time in her life where she is old enough to choose to remain in Abnegation for the rest of her life or if she will choose to transfer to another faction. Everyone her age takes a test to help them know which faction they would do best in, the only problem is she gets results for three factions which can only mean one thing: Tris is Divergent. Nobody can know she is Divergent or else she will be killed; but why?! I guess you'll have to read to find out.

I really like Tris' character, she has a strong personality without being flashy. I like that she is determined to go for the things that are true to herself and is brave enough to make hard decisions, even though she knows it will crush her parents for her to transfer to a different faction she feels more connected with, she still has compassion and concern for them, she also knows that it is important to be a little selfish and go where she knows she can use her true talents and be happy.

With this being a teen novel of course there is a "love" story within the trilogy. But that's ok, it's a good love story without a lot of mushy-gushy-ness. The love interest is between Tris and her Divergent trainer (no worries, he's only a few years older than she is), Four. I think the reason why I really enjoy this love interest is because Four is attracted to Tris for her independence and he let's her be independent. They become a team together and lift and build each other up.

Divergent
The first of the books sets up the intriguing plot. Tris chooses to transfer to Dauntless and she trains to be a member of Dauntless... not without it's challenges and extreme competitiveness. Transferring to Dauntless makes it incredible difficult to hide her Divergent identity and even puts her in danger.

Insurgent
War breaks out between factions and choosing sides will be tricky. Some factions are after the Divergent members of the society and others want to protect. But why does everyone care so much if the Divergent live or die? The cliff-hanger at the end of this books reveals a lot.

Allegiant
When offered the chance to leave the city and explore the unknown land outside of it, Tris and Four with others take the chance. They come to see a whole new reality of where they came from and they even find themselves among new challenges and questioning the nature of humanity. The first two books are told from Tris' prospective but this book is told from Tris and Four's prospective which actually gets a little confusing at times if you forget who's voice you are reading.

One of the thing I liked about this series were some of the though provoking and truthful quotes. The following is a quote by Four and I think it is a simple reminder that we are all hurting and being challenged in some way, usually in ways that others don't even know, and so we need to remember that whom ever we are with, we are there to help each other.

"Since I was young, I have always know this: Life Damges us, everyone. We can't escape that damage. But now, I am also learning this: We can be mended. We mend each other."

1.06.2015

2014! You've already come and gone?!

Disclaimer
This post is more honest than usual and so it probably will sound like I am super depressed but I am not, I am just fine. I just thought I might show a little of "I'm human and not perfect." I truly am so blessed in my life and have so much to be grateful for... which I am grateful for those blessings.

Review
2014 was not my finest or proudest year. I cried a lot this year, oh man a lot. I complained a lot this year. I doubted myself a lot this year. I lost a lot of confidence this year. My job requires a lot of over time to keep things functioning and to run a good and respectable program; with that came with a lot of nights of limited sleep, quick snarffing meals at my desk, cutting out working out, random to few social interactions with people outside of my job, turning down big church callings, and the list runs on. My life was my job this year; for better and for worse. I felt selfish this year as I got lonely and kept thinking about all the little every day to day things I never got to do because there wasn't time.

But with the bad there was some incredible "goods" this year. I worked harder than I have ever worked. I got small glimpses of what it will be like to be a mom being the boss of 42 student workers and even though it can be hard and frustrating, it was also extremely rewarding to help/watch them overcome small to big challenges and even more when they couldn't wait to share the experience with me. Even more was getting to learn from each of them, laugh with them, and even though they were my 42 employees I love them as if they were my own. I wouldn't trade the opportunity to be a mom some day for anything else.

I decided to go 100 days without Facebook over the summer and I absolutely loved it. It was almost refreshing not to read on a daily basis what people were eating for breakfast, what was the next thing to complain about or even just what everyone else was up to in their lives. I even missed the whole ice water bucket challenge and so glad I did. It was also nice to fill my time with other things. The only thing I missed was maybe learning about big events in other's lives but for the ones that truly mattered I found out in other ways. I think I am going to do this again this year!

My parents had to put our dog Jessie down. She was getting so old (15-years-old); blind, deaf and she was starting to look like she was in so much pain. It was time, she needed to be put down but that didn't make it any less sad. I'm missing her a lot and am SO puppy/dog hungry.

As independent I try to be I was so grateful for my close friends and family this year. Whenever I was about to give up or just needed a little boost I always seemed to get a funny or encouraging text, a thoughtful letter, a casual quick phone call or even a surprise visit. I'm grateful for these people in my life who always remind me to be better.

Travels
I did actually get some traveling in this year and I am so grateful for it; I think it was my escape. These were incredible trips and they were each much needed. It was hard to get excited for my trips because I would have to work up to the very last minute before I left and even more over-time than usual but it was worth the work because I needed the break and it seemed that going far away was the only way I could get a break.
North Carolina with friends

Camping in the Uintahs with my Family

Victoria with my mom

Italy with friends

Favorite Moments of This Year
  • Being the boss of all of these incredible people (though I often forgot I was their boss because they are my friends/family):
  • Really just the little simple moments of laughter and closeness when being home with my family; I sure love them and am so grateful I have a close family
  • Dancing on a beach under the stars in North Carolina
  • Finding out that when I am presenting I say, "with that" a lot when I am tying two thoughts together. My staff noticed it this summer and started to take a drink out of their water bottles every time I said "with that" while presenting to students and their parents (Ha, at least it wasn't "umm" or "like.").

Most Visited Blog Posts this Year
Friend Dates
The Realities of an Average Snowboarder
Blogs... They're Kind of Funny
The "Just Like Heaven" Debate
Do we still wonder?

Lessons Learned... I think...
Living an unbalanced life is unhealthy... dur.

I have to keep reminding myself that I need to keep my focus in the right place and remember my Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ should be my focus and it won't always make things better but it sure will keep you strong and watched out for.

I need to stop worrying about what I should be doing and wondering if I am being a failure and just have faith that doing my best and keeping my focus in the right place is what is important and things will work out, even if it is not in the way I expect it to.

I need to stop being a perfectionist! Oh my gosh yes! I need to stop worrying about what others think and just be ok being me; no... love being me. I used to be good at this but I had to work hard at it and I think I stopped working hard and went back to worrying about who I was keeping happy and impressing. You know what? Who the heck cares; I'm going to be me and you better like it or hit the highway!

Wrap up
Again this year was hard and I could have had a 200 times better attitude (but that is the beauty of starting a new year: I can try to be better) but I wouldn't trade it for anything.

This next year I want to find time to be a little selfish but I also want to find more time to serve others as well.