1.25.2015

2015 You Will Be The Year That I Read!

This is getting sad, there are some books on this list that have been repeating on this list for YEARS... it's getting embarrassing. Here's the proof: 2014's List

I have to admit, I watch TV when I need to vedge and I really should do something that's enjoyable but builds more character and exercises my brain. I actually made a goal back in October to finish up 3 shows I have been watching on netflix, pathetic I know, and then to swear of "TV" until I finish the below list. After that I'm going to allow myself to watch some TV but my plan is to be more balanced with TV and reading or of course other things.

Of course if someone wants to go to a movie or watch some TV while hanging out I'm ok with that but I need to stop spending the alone time that I sometimes crave by watching TV and instead do the things I always wish I made time for.

Here's my reading list for the year:

Books I have started but have not finished:

The Count of Monte Cristo by Alexander Dumas

Mediation and the Atonement of Christ by John Taylor

The Three Musketeers by Alexander Dumas

Books to Read this year

Deception Point by Dan Brown

Utopia by Sir Thomas More

The Scarlet Pimpernel by Baroness Orczy

The Tipping Point by Malcolm Gladwell

The Servant by James C. Hunter

Jane Eyre by Charlotte Bronte

Les Miserables by Victor Hugo

Twenty Years After by Alexander Dumas

Peter Pan by J.M. Barrie

Little Women by Louisa May Alcott

Books I would like to read but only if I miraculously finish the above books this year:
Anna Karenina by Leo Tolstoy

War and Peace by Leo Tolstoy

Tale of Two Cities by Charles Dickens

Bossy Pants by Tina Fey

Believing Christ by Stephen E. Robinson

As a Man Thinketh by James Allen

Serena by Ron Rash

Probably a teen novel... why not ;)

1.11.2015

Book Review: Divergent Series


Oh look! Three more books I read in 2014 that were not on my reading list. I should feel good that I got so many books in; even if they weren't on the list. Life is better that way anyways, right? I went and saw the Divergent movie with my roommates and I really enjoyed it which I was worried I would be a little lost watching it, having not read the book. But after the movie I was intrigued enough, I wanted to read the book. Plus the guy who played Four (Theo James) was hot... here take a gander:

I needed an escape from work but it had to be a quick easy read and Divergent fit the bill; just something I could quickly read a chapter or two before bed. I read Divergent in about 10 days and I liked it a lot more than The Hunger Games. Once I read Divergent I had to find out what happened next and how the series concluded and so I continued on. It took me longer to read Insurgent and Allegiant because I had gotten even busier with work that it was either sleep or read... I choose sleep. However, the 2nd and 3rd book didn't draw me in like Divergent had, I only kept reading out of curiosity but not out of being pulled in to books with a 100% page-turner style. HOWEVER, they were entertaining enough that I wanted to keep reading.

The series is about a post-apocalyptic world set in Chicago. The society has learned to survive by dividing the people into 5 factions (groups): Abnegation - the selfless and always putting other's needs before their own, Erudite - the curious and intelligent, Dauntless - the brave and courageous, Amity - the peaceful (they make me think of hippie tree-huggers), and Candor - the honest (to a fault sometimes).

The book is centered around Tris (Beatrice), who is Abnegation born, and it begins with the time in her life where she is old enough to choose to remain in Abnegation for the rest of her life or if she will choose to transfer to another faction. Everyone her age takes a test to help them know which faction they would do best in, the only problem is she gets results for three factions which can only mean one thing: Tris is Divergent. Nobody can know she is Divergent or else she will be killed; but why?! I guess you'll have to read to find out.

I really like Tris' character, she has a strong personality without being flashy. I like that she is determined to go for the things that are true to herself and is brave enough to make hard decisions, even though she knows it will crush her parents for her to transfer to a different faction she feels more connected with, she still has compassion and concern for them, she also knows that it is important to be a little selfish and go where she knows she can use her true talents and be happy.

With this being a teen novel of course there is a "love" story within the trilogy. But that's ok, it's a good love story without a lot of mushy-gushy-ness. The love interest is between Tris and her Divergent trainer (no worries, he's only a few years older than she is), Four. I think the reason why I really enjoy this love interest is because Four is attracted to Tris for her independence and he let's her be independent. They become a team together and lift and build each other up.

Divergent
The first of the books sets up the intriguing plot. Tris chooses to transfer to Dauntless and she trains to be a member of Dauntless... not without it's challenges and extreme competitiveness. Transferring to Dauntless makes it incredible difficult to hide her Divergent identity and even puts her in danger.

Insurgent
War breaks out between factions and choosing sides will be tricky. Some factions are after the Divergent members of the society and others want to protect. But why does everyone care so much if the Divergent live or die? The cliff-hanger at the end of this books reveals a lot.

Allegiant
When offered the chance to leave the city and explore the unknown land outside of it, Tris and Four with others take the chance. They come to see a whole new reality of where they came from and they even find themselves among new challenges and questioning the nature of humanity. The first two books are told from Tris' prospective but this book is told from Tris and Four's prospective which actually gets a little confusing at times if you forget who's voice you are reading.

One of the thing I liked about this series were some of the though provoking and truthful quotes. The following is a quote by Four and I think it is a simple reminder that we are all hurting and being challenged in some way, usually in ways that others don't even know, and so we need to remember that whom ever we are with, we are there to help each other.

"Since I was young, I have always know this: Life Damges us, everyone. We can't escape that damage. But now, I am also learning this: We can be mended. We mend each other."

1.06.2015

2014! You've already come and gone?!

Disclaimer
This post is more honest than usual and so it probably will sound like I am super depressed but I am not, I am just fine. I just thought I might show a little of "I'm human and not perfect." I truly am so blessed in my life and have so much to be grateful for... which I am grateful for those blessings.

Review
2014 was not my finest or proudest year. I cried a lot this year, oh man a lot. I complained a lot this year. I doubted myself a lot this year. I lost a lot of confidence this year. My job requires a lot of over time to keep things functioning and to run a good and respectable program; with that came with a lot of nights of limited sleep, quick snarffing meals at my desk, cutting out working out, random to few social interactions with people outside of my job, turning down big church callings, and the list runs on. My life was my job this year; for better and for worse. I felt selfish this year as I got lonely and kept thinking about all the little every day to day things I never got to do because there wasn't time.

But with the bad there was some incredible "goods" this year. I worked harder than I have ever worked. I got small glimpses of what it will be like to be a mom being the boss of 42 student workers and even though it can be hard and frustrating, it was also extremely rewarding to help/watch them overcome small to big challenges and even more when they couldn't wait to share the experience with me. Even more was getting to learn from each of them, laugh with them, and even though they were my 42 employees I love them as if they were my own. I wouldn't trade the opportunity to be a mom some day for anything else.

I decided to go 100 days without Facebook over the summer and I absolutely loved it. It was almost refreshing not to read on a daily basis what people were eating for breakfast, what was the next thing to complain about or even just what everyone else was up to in their lives. I even missed the whole ice water bucket challenge and so glad I did. It was also nice to fill my time with other things. The only thing I missed was maybe learning about big events in other's lives but for the ones that truly mattered I found out in other ways. I think I am going to do this again this year!

My parents had to put our dog Jessie down. She was getting so old (15-years-old); blind, deaf and she was starting to look like she was in so much pain. It was time, she needed to be put down but that didn't make it any less sad. I'm missing her a lot and am SO puppy/dog hungry.

As independent I try to be I was so grateful for my close friends and family this year. Whenever I was about to give up or just needed a little boost I always seemed to get a funny or encouraging text, a thoughtful letter, a casual quick phone call or even a surprise visit. I'm grateful for these people in my life who always remind me to be better.

Travels
I did actually get some traveling in this year and I am so grateful for it; I think it was my escape. These were incredible trips and they were each much needed. It was hard to get excited for my trips because I would have to work up to the very last minute before I left and even more over-time than usual but it was worth the work because I needed the break and it seemed that going far away was the only way I could get a break.
North Carolina with friends

Camping in the Uintahs with my Family

Victoria with my mom

Italy with friends

Favorite Moments of This Year
  • Being the boss of all of these incredible people (though I often forgot I was their boss because they are my friends/family):
  • Really just the little simple moments of laughter and closeness when being home with my family; I sure love them and am so grateful I have a close family
  • Dancing on a beach under the stars in North Carolina
  • Finding out that when I am presenting I say, "with that" a lot when I am tying two thoughts together. My staff noticed it this summer and started to take a drink out of their water bottles every time I said "with that" while presenting to students and their parents (Ha, at least it wasn't "umm" or "like.").

Most Visited Blog Posts this Year
Friend Dates
The Realities of an Average Snowboarder
Blogs... They're Kind of Funny
The "Just Like Heaven" Debate
Do we still wonder?

Lessons Learned... I think...
Living an unbalanced life is unhealthy... dur.

I have to keep reminding myself that I need to keep my focus in the right place and remember my Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ should be my focus and it won't always make things better but it sure will keep you strong and watched out for.

I need to stop worrying about what I should be doing and wondering if I am being a failure and just have faith that doing my best and keeping my focus in the right place is what is important and things will work out, even if it is not in the way I expect it to.

I need to stop being a perfectionist! Oh my gosh yes! I need to stop worrying about what others think and just be ok being me; no... love being me. I used to be good at this but I had to work hard at it and I think I stopped working hard and went back to worrying about who I was keeping happy and impressing. You know what? Who the heck cares; I'm going to be me and you better like it or hit the highway!

Wrap up
Again this year was hard and I could have had a 200 times better attitude (but that is the beauty of starting a new year: I can try to be better) but I wouldn't trade it for anything.

This next year I want to find time to be a little selfish but I also want to find more time to serve others as well.

12.28.2014

Book Reviews: The Selected Series


So I have my giant reading list for the year and three of the books I read this year were not from my reading list. Ha, figures... I think I aim too high. However, when I posted my reading list I asked for recommendations and my friend Leah recommended The Selection by Kiera Cass. I read it and away I went with the entire trilogy. Leah quoted it as "It's a quick, fun read with lots of romance-y-ness." She was right and I loved it.

Of all the popular trilogies right now... Hunger Games, Divergent, and Matched that I have read, this was the only series where I loved the ending and I felt satisfied with how they wrapped everything up. All of the others felt rushed or unresolved in the end or completely off in left field from where the series started but this one kept me interested the entire time and I felt the resolution was planned from the beginning, making everything fall into place. I mean don't get me wrong, there were a few chapters here and there where I was thinking, "Oh no, is she starting to go off on a tangent?" but then she would bring it back in.

This book is set in a time in the future when The United States has fallen weak and has evolved into the caste system. Everyone is marked by their station with little hope of promoting themselves to a better level. The book is centered around the "selection" which is basically a G-Rated version of the Bachelor. Thirty-five girls are chosen from all of the castes to come and live at the castle where they date the Prince and he chooses his bride to be, to become a princess and one day the queen, from this group of girls.

Now don't just go and pooh pooh it off, off of that; it's actually a lot of fun. I think what I liked the most is the main girl in the books, America Singer. She is spunky, speaks her mind, kind, confident, considerate, fun, strong and lovable. But I also liked the entire other story going on; the books are not just about the Selection, they were also about how to improve the country and bring equality back to everyone.

Yes, this is a teen novel so of course this was light and fluffy but I didn't care. It was fun to be giddy and imagine being dressed up in the fancy ball gowns with all the girls and secretly hating Celeste (I guess you'll just have to read book to find out why we hate Celeste... or do we?). It was one of those books where you wished life really was that fair: a prince noticing you for being you and instantly falling in love with you just because you surprised him for being true to yourself.

The Selection
The first of the trilogy. The first 35 girls to be selected to the palace to be part of The Selection. This is where we meet the girls, the royal family, the hand-maids, the royal guard and of course... Prince Maxon.

The Elite
The group is narrowed down to 6 girls... "The Elite." America is torn between her childhood love and her new love for Maxon. While also the palace is being invaded by "The Rebels"... but what on earth could they be after?!

The One
The group is down to 4 girls and Prince Maxon must chose "The One" but not without some trials. The country is in chaos with riots, they King is trying to sabotage the relationship between America and Maxon, family members are dying, and the list goes on.

10.02.2014

Do We Still Wonder?



Over a year ago I backpacked through Peru with a friend. One of our days we visited Colca Canyon, the deepest canyon in the world. On our ride back to Arequipa, the city we were staying in, we stopped at the tallest peak at Colca Canyon. As we were walking around looking at a rocky dead plain, with a few patches of snow, I noticed a little old woman trying to reach over a rock wall and touch a patch of snow. I watched her for a moment as she struggled to lean over the wall, because of her old age and body, determined to touch the snow. I walked over to her and asked if she was trying to touch the snow and I soon realized she didn't speak English because she looked at my blankly and then said one word that I didn't recognize. So, just assuming she wanted to touch the snow, I decided to just lean over the rock wall and scoop up a hand full for her. As I went to hand it to her, her eyes were bright and she looked at me for reassurance that it would be ok to take it. I smiled and nodded and then I put it in her hand and she immediately said, “Oh!” and then giggled quietly and sweetly to herself but there was excitement in that giggle too. It was the sweetest thing watching someone experience snow for the first time in their life.

I ran across this moment in my travel journal the other day and it made me smile but it also made me think. Do I work that determinedly towards things I have never done? Do I strive for worthwhile things even if they are hard? Do I take time to find joy in the small things? Do I recognize the things to be grateful for and for the things I get to experience? Do I still take time to wonder and be imaginative?

I was grateful for that experience to help that woman reach her goal to touch snow but also grateful for what she taught me and made me reflect on.

9.29.2014

Blog Spotlight: A Very Fukui Family

I have a student worker in my office who is taking a business course where she is required to write a blog. The blog can be about anything. She has decided to write about the cultural differences between her upbringing and her husband's upbringing; he is half-Japanese... she is not.

Her posts are short and sweet but also very smart and witty. I like that her blog makes you laugh but is not negative. I love that she is able to laugh at herself as she is truly trying to learn about the culture and customs she has married into.

Go check out her blog and follow her: A Very Fukui Family

9.23.2014

Book Review: The Giver


I first read "The Giver" by Lois Lowry in my 7th grade English class. I remember liking the book a lot but not being able to remember the plot.

At a get together with some friends of mine from growing up, I brought up The Giver and asked if anyone could remember what the book was about. We could remember little bits and pieces but we really couldn't remember the book. It bothered me that I couldn't remember a book that I loved at one point in my life so I decided to read it again.

As soon as I starting reading The Giver it all came flooding back to me. It's a story of a controlled society where people are told exactly what job to have, their emotions are taken away from them, they see no color and the world is perfect and ordinary with nothing out of a routine. I love the book because it fascinates me that a "society" could function in such a way. It makes me think, would I want to live in a perfect world or would I rather have the imperfect world I live in where I know sadness and pain but I also know joy, wonder, adventure, variety and more?

I think the "controlled society" is very "in" right now. The Hunger Games, Divergent, Maze Runner and more and The Giver fits right in with them. No wonder they made a movie of The Giver (I haven't seen it yet but it will be interesting to see what they do with it). I wonder why this story line keeps us so interested and pulled in?

The Giver was a fast and easy read. I liked the book again but I think different things stood out to me as I read it. It's funny how with 13 years later a book can have different meanings. I think the one thing that was a big difference for me was the ending. I feel like the book ends in a very metaphorical way and when I read it in 7th grade I understood the ending completely differently then when I read it today. I had to read the last page a few times because I couldn't believe that I was understanding it differently and it couldn't be that the book was ending that way.

I'd recommend reading the book. Again it is a fast easy read, which is nice with our busy live's, but it also was just as interesting as it was 13 years ago.